Always

This is my life now
This is my routine
This is the life I'm living
Even without thinking

I'll always drive down these streets
Passing by the same houses
Looking at everyone's faces
Wondering where I'm going

Sometimes I stop and wonder
My mind goes somewhere
I remember you and everything
Then I start sighing

I can't always live like this
I won't always be this way
It's just that you're too much to bear
I miss you so much I don't care

This Christmas

I can hear the bells ringing
Deep inside this heart of mine
I know it's almost Christmas
An important time of the year

People clamoring to finish wrapping
All the gifts they need to bring
Under the Christmas tree that's glowing
Little kids waiting impatiently

All I want for this year
Is nothing anyone can give
It is on my own decision
That this gift I've yet to receive

I'm wishing for you this Christmas
Probably every Christmas next
I know it won't happen
And I'll always be lonely each year