Always

This is my life now
This is my routine
This is the life I'm living
Even without thinking

I'll always drive down these streets
Passing by the same houses
Looking at everyone's faces
Wondering where I'm going

Sometimes I stop and wonder
My mind goes somewhere
I remember you and everything
Then I start sighing

I can't always live like this
I won't always be this way
It's just that you're too much to bear
I miss you so much I don't care

This Christmas

I can hear the bells ringing
Deep inside this heart of mine
I know it's almost Christmas
An important time of the year

People clamoring to finish wrapping
All the gifts they need to bring
Under the Christmas tree that's glowing
Little kids waiting impatiently

All I want for this year
Is nothing anyone can give
It is on my own decision
That this gift I've yet to receive

I'm wishing for you this Christmas
Probably every Christmas next
I know it won't happen
And I'll always be lonely each year

Remember Me

Love me when this is over

Remember me when I leave

Kiss me before I leave

So I can remember your taste when I’m  gone 

When You're Gone

My mind’s not thinking straight

I keep remembering the time we had yesterday

I can’t talk to you about serious stuff

Because I don’t know how you’d react

I kept playing the conversation over and over again

Looking for hints that might lead me to an answer

If you’re falling for me and something’s starting

Or maybe it was just my imagination working

I can’t recall if you said you’re thinking too much

Or my mind that was thinking out too loud

I said under my breath “Don’t mess with me”

Because I might not be able to recover

I’ve kept my distance for a reason

I wanted to keep it to a friendship level

Because after all’s done

I don’t want to miss you when you’re gone 

Us

I’ve been thinking about us lately

I just don’t know what we are

I could say we’re really close friends

But I’d lie if I said were not more than that

I sleep with you

I eat with you

I take a bath with you

I just don’t know what we are

I’ve thought about it countless times

I even imagined my life with you

But there are so many complicated things in my life

I don’t know if I’ll be making the right decision

I’m happy being in your company

I like you a lot

I’m just afraid of getting too close to you

‘Coz by then I might not be able to let go

Crappy Movies

I cried but no one’s coming

I lay in bed hoping to find something

Peace, serenity, calmness but nothings’ coming

I thought of you and tears started flowing

My heart aches for longing

Why won’t someone come?

Doesn’t anybody want me?

Why can’t they see me?

I pick out crappy movies

I get hooked on romance

But once I see how my life ends up

Bitterness just swells up inside me

I seek the love that’s meant for me

But nothing seems to go right

I look at it from different places

Hoping one day it’d pop out

I long for someone that doesn’t care what emotions I keep inside

I want someone to hold me and tell me it’s all right

I want to cry my heart out but all I do is sigh

I cry for a while without thinking; pouring all my emotions inside

I want someone to notice, that my heart seems to cry

I want someone to love me, I want someone to care

I want someone to be with me, until the day is clear

From the Heart

Music makes me sing

It also makes me want to write

Poems coming from the heart

That doesn’t seem to rhyme

I know it wouldn’t make any sense

Or something someone wouldn’t bother reading

But this all comes from deep inside me

I just can’t fathom why.

I should just shun it away and keep it at bay

But I want to be able to remember how days have gone by

When my heart longs to write and flutter at the same time.

Special Moments

A thousand kisses every morning

Two tight hugs followed

Then a sweet gentle kiss from you

Makes every morning special

Although I know it wouldn’t last long

I could savour the moment while it lasted

I know you won’t do it everyday

But once you start it,

I won’t be able to forget

This is for the special moments

When you and I are together

Before the breaking of the dawn starts

And the sun starts to rise

I would caress your hair and we would smile

I love how you make me smile;

It also makes me sigh

I don’t think I’ll be able to say this

But kiss me before you go and smile as to promise me you’ll be back tomorrow.

Tainted

As I sit here in front of the laptop

Trying hard not to be distracted

Lightly tapping my fingers on the keyboard

Writing thoughts that are just too much

Feeling cold at home

Alone and confused most of the time

I let the best of me go

And make the worst come out of me

I hoped that one day I’ll just stop thinking

Stop hoping for something I can’t have

I can’t even pray at a decent state now

Since I’m trashed and tainted beyond repair.